Image via WikipediaI guess some people call it mid-life crisis.You get to a point and realise you'll never be a rock star or an astronaut and everyday forks in the road are taken and doors of options close until you either get to where you want to be or live a life of regret wishing roads untaken were taken.
I've been feeling more and more unsettled lately with just about every aspect of my life - from the pokey flat I live in, to the dead end job I really don't enjoy.
Having worked in this job for over a year, not only have I realised I don't really enjoy it or want to continue, I've also realised I really have no clue what I actually want to do. I'm not sure what is more depressing.
I've had the odd couple of jobs that I've really enjoyed, and I really went above and beyond whilst doing those, but the last few years it's really been a case of clock watching and putting in the effort you need just to survive (echoes of Office Space anyone?)
Sue keeps trying to get me inspired to move to Australia, and maybe I need a complete shock to the system like that to find my inspiration.
I really don't know, but I do know that I walk around in a haze and it just gets more and more depressing with each day.
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1 comment:
I think this sentiment is echoed by many of us Gen Xers (or are we Gen Yer? never could keep that straight)... I know I feel it from time to time... it's why I left Canoe... having Grace though has done a lot towards filling that hole and by freelancing and getting back to just writing and working on stuff you like more, it's changed my perspective... eating better also helps, but it's so goddamn boring! Good blog, keep it up!
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